Its funny... I just re-confirmed today something I learned about myself a few years ago. It happened when Reverend Joe Purcell mentioned about pride being one of the reasons why we're afraid to prophesy in the Spirit. We're afraid of being wrong and being shamed. I think pride is one of the key factors in my life. Although I've tried to not to be proud or over-confident in my abilities, there's still a small element of not wanting to 'lose face'. I think its a side effect of being brought up in an Asian (read: Singaporean) culture. It has made me realise why I haven't improved in my chinese since primary 4. Its because I'm afraid of making a fool of myself when I speak chinese. I can't get the correct pronunciation and my classmates in primary school used to laugh at the way I spoke or read it.

There are problems afoot in Charis. It seems to me that this is what happens when people try to take things into their own hands. Doing what they THINK God would want them to do. But who am I to judge whether what they do is right or not? All I know is that this is not they way Jesus would treat His people. And however much we want to serve & please Him, we shouldn't take people's feelings for granted. Different stages of growth, different growth rates... You don't pry a butterfly out of the cocoon, or try to spread the petals of a flowering bud.

::: Song of the Day :::
In His time, in His time.
He makes all things beautiful, in His time.
Lord, please show me every day,
As You’re teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say,
In Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing,
In Your time.
| maranatha! music - in his time |